Like there's this guy....

"Ok...like...there is this guy...and like...he's so cute...and like, I like him....like...a lot. He's like...everything I want...like...but...I don't...could it really be...like...true love for me? Like...I just don't know....!"

Ok, seriously, I share with you a lot of aspects of my life in hopes that you may relate and apply. I really just want you to know that we are all together in the struggle and that we all go through pain, happiness, joy, dissappointment, and...and love. So where am I now on my emotional roller coster, well, judging from the above comment, "Like...I met this guy...and like...he's so cute."

One thing I hate about getting into a relationship is that inital trial phase you have to go through to get to know one another. Love is a gamble to me. You have to bet you heart in order to play the game. And like any other gambling spectrum, you win or you loose. Boy, how I hate to loose. Yes, I met someone and yes he's cute, but that only mattered to me years ago. Sure I want him to be easy on the eye, but now its a lot more to consider before betting my heart on him.

I been doing my research on this young man. So far so.....alright. He has his faults and outside issues, but then again, who doesn't. I really like the way that he is a gentleman and adores me greatly. Really he reminds me of my father which is why this guy is getting so much of my attention. So, now what do I do?

I move easy. I proceed with caution. I make sure that every little step I take in this relationship is ordered by the Lord. But the main thing is I cannot be afraid of being dissappointed. This factor is what keeps a lot of us from being able to love someone. We are so scared of that broken heart feeling that we think it is wise to just stay away from love altogether. But how wise is that? What are the draw backs to not having someone of your own.

1. Lonely...I'm so lonely...I have nobody to call my own....
2. No stability, you are constantly allowing people to come in and out your life and that is not all the time healthy
3. It sucks to be that friend that don't have a mate. Everyone has someone but you...lol
4. Its always good to share your life with someone. Sometimes having that one person who understands your life and all that comes with it, and they still don't judge you....its a great thing.
5. God created us to find someone and be fruitful and mulitply.

So, back to me, what is DFitz going to do about this guy that obviously has a hold on her attention? Hummmmmmmmm good question. I will not be scared of any experience God has prepared for me. If this is just a seasonal relationship, thank you Lord. If this is my forever, than thank you Lord just the same. Love is a beautiful thing when you can appreciate the good and the bad about the emotion.

Continue to pray for me, and I'll keep you informed on whats good in my life......

DFitz
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What Romo Don't Know....

Allow me to set the stage for this event. Its the National Football League Playoffs. On one side of the field there are strong confident men dressed in navy blue and white jerseys. Standing directly across the football field is a team who is worn and weary. A team who had been through so much the whole season, making it this far was a dream come true. As they watched the clock at 1:19 in their aqua green, white, and grey jerseys. Millions upon millions of people watched as breathing had no longer became an option. The fate was predetermined as both Dallas Cowboy fans and Seattle Seahawks fans considered the Cowboys the winner. The score was 21-20 favor the Seahawks and all that was needed to win this game for the Cowboys was a field goal kick. The opportunity had presented it self and Dallas was going for it.

The snap was released and the Dallas Golden Boy, Tony Romo, the quarterback, fumbled the snap. This meant he had to run the ball in for a touch down and he was denied. There is no question I am Seattle Seahawks fan. I am a die hard fan too. I love that team. I'd be a lie however if I didn't admit I too thought the game was lost.

I'm not sure how to say this, but, Mr. Romo if it weren't for your butter fingers, the Seahawks would probably be saying the goodbyes for the season. Yet, you gave us a chance. It was your inexperience at such a level that gave us the chance to excel and another shot at the super bowl. I hate to say this, but we won because of you. Pat your self on the back, if I could, I'd give you a hug. You are an awesome guy and will forever be remembered as "the guy that fumble the snap for the game winning score". I wonder how that feels to be that person.

It would be rude of me not to mention all the other great things Mr. Romo has done for the Cowboys. He stepped in and stepped up. However, after that play, non of that matters. Championships matter. And as for the Dallas Cowboys and Mr. Tony Romo, you go home empty handed.

I can't help but relate this situation to real life. How many times have you, the average person, been so close to winning and fumbled. I know how that feels and that is the worst feeling in the world. It's even worse when you have others depending on you and you drop the ball along with the hopes and aspirations of those around you. So, is there life after the fumble?

Of course there is life after a fumble. I live by this motto:

"My mistakes help me gain experience; My experience help me avoid mistakes."

So take what you know now and go forward. Use that experience as a chance to grow and become more. Prepare your self for that same moment (because the it will come back around), and when it comes be ready.

I can relate to how Mr. Romo is feeling. I am probably not making it any better by poking fun at the situation, but that poses a valid point. Though it may not be a laughing matter now, especially with people's jobs on the line, you got to be able to forgive your self for the the fumbles in life and laugh at it later.

I look back on the things I've done, the fumbles I have made and I laugh now. I laugh, but I know I would not make that mistake again.

My Seahawks won by the mistake of one man. Yet, at the end of the day, it does not matter how it was done, they won. This is another point. No matter how you made it, you made it. Many times people want to take from you because you got the promotion only because "Joe got fired" or "You are the boss's daughter". So, you got it, and now you move on.

The lesson learned here, thanks to Mr. Romo , is, "we all fall short of the glory of God". When you fumble get up and go on, and make sure it doesn't happen again. We also learn "The race is not always given to the swift, but rather to he who endures until the end". So if you win, you win. The circumstances around the win in null and void.

DFitz

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Thank You.... You

The new year came trucking in full force and I must say I am so excited about what the future holds. For Write is Right Entertainment and Modern Age Media, it is the "The Year of the Grind". Its time to take flight and soar to the top. I do not believe anything (with the exception of death) can stop me right now. Yet I really cannot start this New Year without reflecting back on the old year.

In my years on this earth I have been through a lot. I have shook hands with the devil and high fived Jesus. I have slept in the gutter and made a bed on mountain tops. Ups and downs. The story of my life. Yet the most recent event that was meant to break me, actually is the the one event in my life that empowered me.

I fell in love with a good man. He was my sunshine, my drive to exist. He was my laugh, my smile, my heart, and soon he became my pulse. So one could only imagine the extent of pain I felt when my whole reason for being said he didn't want me anymore. When we were together, it was like I lived in an alternate universe. He made me happy. So when I received the news over the telephone that he did not want to be with me, my heart dropped to my feet. It was as if my life was sucked out of me. How was I to function without him?

I was kicked out the alternate universe and I sat alone and hurt in the real world. Days went by where I didn't eat, I didn't get out of bed. I tried my damnest to get him back and the only response I got was "You are crazy". Heart break is a bitch and I had to divorce her.

Slowly I recovered from my extreme heartbreak and I began to see the real world around me. Before I met this young man, I was on my way up. I wanted to take him with me, but somewhere down the line I lost focus. I put so much energy into keeping him happy, I lost track of what I was suppose to do for myself. He got more attention than God.

I moved away from from him and that whole environment and as soon as I got to my new state (physically and mentally) I saw a big clear picture of how my life was suppose to be. So what did I learn?

First of all, I am not bitter. I am thankful. I am thankful for the opportunity to experience true love because I had never had that chance. I am thankful he choose to break up with me because now I am prospering the way God wants me to. I have an unbelievable relationship with God that I wish I had a long time ago. I have a drive out of this world. And, AND I am happy with making me happy.

I have a testimony out of this world. That breakup happened at the end of 2006 enough time for me to get my self together for 2007. So the whole experience deserves a thank you. A very appreciative woman I am. I have grown so much that I have to pat my self on the back.

So as I enter into 2007, I am ready! I am ready for it all. This is the "Year of the Grind" and I am grinding. I'm sure Satan meant for that breakup to break me because he knows whats in store for me, but I'm still here. I am still going.

So to my folks, "Watch out for me". To my Write is Right Entertainment and Modern Age Media family, "Let's get it!" And to my last love, "Thank You...You"