HAnd of Hearts

I wipe the obvious from the face of my heart
I love him but there no room to start
A love affair he's the one I love and care for
The only one I love and adore, but furthermore
The unspokeness is drowning out the noise
And the noise is taking away from my poise
I tried real hard to deny the truth you did too
But when I saw you play the ace of heart I followed suit
Put my king down and you won that book
We leave the table holding hands the opponents shook
I say I'll never leave your side even though you reneged
I gotta hand full of hearts to give...
You call me ya girlfriend only when you feeling my body
And when we hit the spot light then I turn to nobody
I ain't trying to call you out but you hearing me screaming
A perfect life with you I could only be dreaming
And I tried many times to be more than just friends
Deny my love while you holding my hand
Eye to eye, you keeping me in the life of pretend
But I need you kinda like I need my pen
You are my sanity yet you drive me crazy
You make things clear even though we are hazy
Did me wrong a couple times and yet I stayed true
Turn your face when I made a request from you...
I keep my mind on this money and intangle you with my grind
And since I can't have your heart I'll capture your mind
So that I can erase the thought of you ever leaving
Change what this life has you believing
Because if another time comes and you renege
I'ma find another partner who has more to give
And knows how to play and wont treat me that way
Someone who gives a damn about me everyday
I just want to be happy and my happiness is you
So to you I will do, plot my course make my move
And if you decide that maybe you need me in your life
Then the heart i have left will survive and my hope for love is revived